Sunday Rants from a Negative Mood

I just need to get this out of my system.

I really need to learn how to believe in myself. I spent Sunday catching up on my reading and doing some thinking about my life and it’s direction. Since I always have Sundays off, it tends to be a good day for reflection.

I often feel that I have allowed myself to somehow get off track from the dreams and visions I held as a young man. Now granted, just as we grow and change, over time we modify, expand and change our dreams and goals. But several of mine are still quite similar. And yet, even after 20 years or more, I am still no closer to accomplishing them. It is quite hard not to get frustrated with my lack of progress. I mean, how would you feel if you just wasted so many years.

Part of that comes from the fact that now I am older and wiser. I better understand myself and what I would and would not enjoy doing. I am much more focused about what gives me joy, what my core interests are and where I would like to be in 5 years, or even 10 years. So now that I have a definite fire under my butt, It frustrates me that I didn’t know this stuff earlier, when I could have applied it towards being a success now.

But such is the journey of life.

Everyone has a mantra that states “Its never to late”. But that feels like something we just tell ourselves when were not where we expected to be. I know that I plan to forge headlong into what I know now is my dreams and goals. Although it is never to late to learn and grow and accomplish my life’s aspirations and purpose, I am burning up the oil and time I’ll need to enjoy it.

Ok. Now that I've gotten those doubts out, I can move on with my affirmations.

I believe in myself...I believe in myself. ( repeat)